CHANGING

so, i'm not here to tell you how to deal with change. or what's the best way to cope with it. to be honest, that is a personal thing that each individual has to figure out for themselves. and that's called growth. but what i can tell you is that it is inevitable. change will happen in every aspect in your life...and for some reason, all that change manifests itself during this time in your life. yeah, i'm still talking about college. 

i'm going to address a few changes that i have gone through, to either illuminate the numerous similarities between all college bound kids, or prepare you for your own future journey. 

one of the most pertinent changes at this time and for this blog, is my training schedule. excepting a few universities, collegiate running is shorter and faster. no matter what division you are training in. and it is beyond weird switching from the long, repetitive slower stuff we did in high school to what i'm dong now. and at first i grumped about it. but i have to trust my new coaches just as much as i did my old ones. it is just hard letting go of the past. 

and now that i am leaving (in t-17 days), even more things are changing. my mom called me the other day and asked if i was busy and wanted to go see a river dance show in october with the family. i was like whoa! (yes, that is a finding nemo reference.) that's when it hit me that my life is really not going to be the same. they're talking about rearranging the rooms in the house and giving a few rooms, different purposes. including mine. and while it doesn't really bother me, at the same time, i feel kind of panicky. home is not really going to be the same when i don't live there 24-7. it's different. and weird. 

college is a new slate. a new part of your life. and that newness is EVERYWHERE. new bedding, new housing arrangements, new running, new team, new food, new shoes, new stuff, new clothes, new coaches, new friends, new school, new. new. new. 

and new is bright and shiny. and i like it. i do. but there is something comforting from that old blanket you've kept since you were a kid (or insert whatever metaphor you relate to the most) that just doesn't measure up to that new comforter. 

that's kinda how i feel right now.