Stress
it comes in waves. and hits like the flu. Recently, my teammates have suffered from a particularly strong strain. It's weird, because I have normally been the one to stress myself to insanity. And I am not saying that midterm week, with a recruit weekend doesn't cause me to panic...believe me it does. but maybe the years of AP and IB and 2 hour runs have prepared me to handle it better. Or maybe my class load is significantly lighter. EIther way, I am thankful. I am starting to know my teammates well enough to tell when they are stressed by the way they behave...and they are becoming comfortable enough to confide in me why they are stressed.
For a few, their stress is not school related, but one of a more social nature. and i find a problem with that. a team needs to support one another.
we affect one another. your comments affect my mood. we miss you at dinner. we study together. live together. you seek my approval. i earned your respect. and visa versa, etcetera. so i hate to see this conflict...built on hypocrisy and fear.
it would be better if everyone, just for one minute, thought about someone else and put someone else first. you know what they say, before you criticize someone, run a mile in his shoes. Then when you do criticize that person, you'll be a mile away and
have her shoes. and man...this team sure runs some miles. but I think we need a few more under our belts.
Thanks for keeping us updated, babe. Sorry things have been less pleasant lately. I love you & think of you always!
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